And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever-the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. John 14:16-20
Pentecost 2005. Becka and I were leading an outreach to India. Our team was asked to lead the service at a local Nepali fellowship, which meant I would be preaching. A local leader shared with me that this was a new fellowship, and that most of the believers had never had any teaching on the Holy Spirit. Being Pentecost and all he thought it would be a good opportunity for me to share and pray for people to receive the Holy Spirit. Wow! Me? Not having preached much, I was nervous, but I was also totally full of myself in that horribly religious, hyper-spiritual kind of way. I imagined walls shaking and healings and tongues of fire and then (finally) everyone would recognize what spiritual authority I had. This was my chance!
I preached a very simple message on Acts chapter 2 and basically repeated the essence of what I had been taught in all my years of attending church, bible school, and working for a Christian organization: receive the Holy Spirit so that you can receive the power and the gifts. Not surprisingly, just about everyone came forward at the altar call. I led our team in praying. No walls shaking or tongues of fire, but there was a lot of shouting and bodies hitting the floor. It was a real Benny Hinn moment. As I left the service and walked back to where we were staying, the pastor walked beside me and excitedly exclaimed, “Wow, brother-that was powerful.”Yes it was. And it was all about me.
Not long after we returned from India I went through a defining spiritual experience (You might even call it a conversion experience-one of many that I’ve had!) I became aware of how legalistic and judgmental I was. Under all my layers of religiousness I discovered that I was deeply insecure. A lot of this had to do with my understanding of who God was and during that time something changed; my conception of God shifted from an abstract and distant judge to a very personal and relational Father. It’s not that this was a totally new concept for me, that God could be my father. It’s just that somehow it shifted from my head to my heart. It was like putting down one pair of glasses and putting on another pair. The old glasses made me see everything from my own insecurities and fear of God, the new ones helped me to see the world from the perspective of the Father’s love.
January 2007. We are in Burundi, and my heart is broken because the body of Christ is plagued by legalism, judgment, division, and worst of all, power. Not the power that points to Christ, but the power that points to man. Not the signs and wonders that bring the Father glory, but the signs and wonders that bring men glory. It’s a power that corrupts and divides; it destroys leaders by perpetuating a form of sensationalism that prevents maturity. For the humble masses, this power gives hope for a moment, but never more. This power is horribly religious and hyper-spiritual. It makes a mockery of a much greater power, the servant power of the cross. It does what Christ would not; it turns stone into bread to feed itself, captivates the masses with amazing displays of distraction, and betrays all that is sacred for the chance to rule over others. This power does not lead people to Christ, but to “Apostles” and “Men of God” and “Prophets” and those with great “spiritual authority.”
I know it’s not my place to change or judge others, but my heart is broken for those searching for Christ in this troubled land. God opens a door for our team to teach in a wonderful community. We begin a series of teaching on the person of Christ. It is very simple teaching, but we do our best to keep the person of Jesus the focus. We talk about grace, about forgiveness, about hope, about reconciliation, about relationship, and about a Son who stepped into our world and recreated it from the inside out, reconciling all things to the Father. We also teach about the Holy Spirit. This time I do not speak with much boldness or authority because now I know I understand very little about these things. We share what we do know: that God gives his Spirit freely, and that this Spirit cries out within us, “Abba Father.” The Spirit is the one who enables us to know we are children of the Father; that we are loved and accepted and included. We share that, yes, there are gifts and power, but that most importantly the Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Truth; He takes from what is Christ’s and makes it known to us. By his power we are witnesses to the Savior of the world, not just in our words and wonders, but in our lives.
At some point in the teaching, a man wanders in from the street. His body is broken; he is full of pain and unable to even sit down. He listens to us speak about the love of the Father in Christ Jesus, and he is instantly healed. We do not notice him, and after the service he quietly leaves without saying anything. The next day he returns for the teaching. He patiently listens, and at the end of the service he comes forward to share his story. He talks about not only the brokenness of his body, but the brokenness of his spirit and the tragedy of his life. He explains that he heard the teaching from the street and was curious to hear more about Jesus. As he came in, he was healed. He did not mention me or my friend teaching with me.
He spoke of only Jesus.